Monday, April 30, 2007

Surgery Postponed

On Friday I went to the hospital for my pre-surgery visit to have lab work done and to talk with the anesthesiologist. I had been wondering whether he would say that surgery is a good idea with the problems I have been having with my vocal cords. When I met with the anesthesiologist, he was not too keen on the idea of surgery, specifically, having a breathing tube down my throat for 3 hours. He conferred with another anesthesiologist and the decision was that surgery was not in order as scheduled. It was to be today, April 30th.

You can imagine how this rocked my boat somewhat. My sister was to fly in the next day from Dayton and my daughter was driving in on Sunday and another sister had flight reservations for later in the week. I quickly made calls to them so they could cancel plane reservations and change plans.

I wondered and asked God, "What is going on? What is your purpose in all this? Is it so you can stretch my faith? Is it through the delay and in my stretched faith and asking for healing, that your plan is to miraculously heal me?"

Throughout the weekend, my thoughts have been that God is in control and He does have a purpose in all this..... it's just that I do not yet know His purpose.

So here I sit on Monday morning, at a time that I was to be in surgery... or just getting out of it and in the recovery room and am wondering what God has in store. I'm unemployed, have laryngitis, and now a new surgery date of June 14th. Unquestionably, God is at work... He always is...and I am trusting that His plan in all this is greater than I could imagine.

Over the last three months I have moved forward in my ministry of the Faith and Health Connection in a huge way. Last week I gave two workshops and I am preparing for one in June. I have written two articles about spiritual exercise as well as a first draft of a booklet on that topic. I am sure that the enemy has not liked what I have been doing. He does not want me, or anyone for that matter, talking about Biblical truths and how they impact a person's health. So quite possibly, Satan is playing havoc with my personal health. He knows that if he confuses me and could cause me to become depressed over my situation that I could become ineffective in what I am trying to accomplish with my ministry.

What I have done is to try to be as humble as possible and as dependant as possible on God through all this. I am praising Him for His love for me and the faith and strength that He is providing me. I am reading more about healing and trying to maintain the mindset and disposition of my spirit the way I understand God would want me to so that I will be victorious in all this. All for the Glory of God.

Dale

Friday, April 27, 2007

Trust God

It's three days before my surgery...and I admit it is a challenge to keep a clear head and to juggle all that is required mentally to keep an even keel. Don't know where I would be without my faith in all this.

I'm a thinker not a feeler. As a rule of thumb, I tend to keep my mind, (and my body for that matter) busy as a coping mechanism in tough, stressful times. More and more I am learning how to turn things over to God. Spending enough time with Him in His presence is key for me to be able to do that. One of my favorite Bible verses is from Isaiah 40:31: " But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." Turning over things to God at a time like this and trusting that I am in His hands keeps me from being weary. It provides me strength and resolve. It gives me assurance and hope that everything will be okay. I am asking God to help me go through this with His strength..... go right through it emotionally and spiritually...... not around it.

For the last two weeks+ I have had a bad case of laryngitis, not having a normal voice is bad enough, but having this condition going in to surgery is even tougher. It can wear on you..... yet another reason to lean even more on God to provide comfort and peace.

God does not promise that we will be free from illnesses and disease.... but it sure is good to have the personal relationship with Him in times like this.

My 2-3 mile runs have been special to me during this last few weeks. Looking forward to a run with my daughter on Sunday when she arrives the day before my surgery!

Keep running your race!

Dale

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Prostate Cancer Surgery Scheduled

After meeting and talking with four Oncologists/Urologists, I have made a decision to have surgery to remove my prostate on Monday, April 30th here in Charlotte.

My challenge now in the next week is to prepare my spirit, mind and body for this operation. I am blessed to have the support and prayers of my family, my girlfriend and many close friends during this time. A current bout of laryngitis( 9 days and counting) has me concerned but my doctor believes it will be gone by my surgery date.

I have a close friend who had his prostate removed just this week here in Charlotte and he is filling me in on all the details of his operation and recovery. I was able to visit him in the hospital on Monday and accompanied him on his first walk. :-) We have enjoyed many runs together over the years...... but never a walk like this one in the hospital. It was a special time for us both to experience together.

Not sure if I will have the wherewithal to post another note here before the surgery...... My faith is carrying me through this... and I'm so glad that I have God in my life in a huge way at a time like this.

If you've read this and are a praying person, I thank you for your prayers and may God bless you.


Have faith and be in good health!

Dale

Monday, April 2, 2007

Trust and Faith

This past Thursday I visited with another Urologist/Oncologist to receive another opinion about treatment for the prostate cancer. He was up front and direct. He told me that it was a no brainer... surgery is the way to go. I told him of a tentative date I had secured for surgery... June 20th, and he strongly advised me to move that up to be much sooner. Although the cancer is currently contained in the prostate, he reminded me that it only takes one cell to get out of the organ to spread into other parts of my body.

He also told me that he would recommend sparing or saving only the left nerve bundle, not the right. He is concerned that there is too much cancer right up next to the right edge of the prostate and he would want to ensure that during surgery all the cancer cells are removed. At the end of the visit the doctor prayed with me. He reminded me that God will guide me in the decisions I make. The next two days, I prayed a lot and asked Him for guidance and wisdom.

Saturday, a friend called me to say he learned of my condition and told me he had been praying for me. I learned that he also has prostate cancer. We talked for about an hour. His doctor is a man that others have suggested I visit with and consider using as my surgeon. I believe that God orchestrated this phone call and so about an hour ago I placed a call to this doctor's office asking for an appointment.

I am placing my trust in God that He WILL direct my path and guide me in the decisions I must make and that He will cause the timing of surgery to take place as it is necessary for my complete healing.